Twenty-five with a dream career, living in a recently renovated home, newly engaged & planning our dream wedding for May, 2021. It sounds pretty perfect, right? And it is, I am grateful everyday BUT when your mental state isn’t ‘stable’, things are far from perfect.

Three years ago, we as a family had a pretty traumatic time. Other than your Mum, who are the most important women in your life? Mine – my Nan & Auntie. So what do you do when they both get taken away from you within weeks? Well, my world pretty much changed forever. My Nan had been diagnosed with Alzheimer’s a few years prior, so we as a family cared for her at home, 24/7. Even in her darkest days, she was the sweetest, kindest, most loving person there was. We were by her bedside as her breathing began to change & there was an amazing Dementia UK nurse who talked me through the so called process. She slipped away as we were by her side & I didn’t think it was possible to feel so numb. So, as well as this, My Auntie, who after endless visits to the Drs. was diagnosed with oesophageal cancer with weeks to live. She was quickly moved into Y-Bwthyn cancer hospital & sooner than I could ever imagine, the words “she’s gone” came out of my Dad’s mouth.

So I grieved for a while, I went through the many stages of grief & even anger – I felt that many people didn’t understand as to them, it was “only my Auntie” or “just my Nan”. Then all of a sudden, I felt ‘normal’ again and I felt myself for quite a long while until I became obsessed with my health. I began spending a lot of my time at the GP’s surgery and because I didn’t believe what they were telling me, I went on to spend hundreds of pounds in Spire hospital on ultra sounds and breast tests. Putting this down in writing, it’s all such a blur & seems very ‘doom & gloom’ but this isn’t what this blog is intended to be about, but more so how this has affected me & my journey of overcoming my own little trauma.

I have learnt that life is full of ups and downs and although it scares me sometimes, I realise life is short, too short to worry about ‘silly’ things. Anxiety is a daily battle for me as well as many others’. So if you want to follow my road to happiness, then follow my blog.